Sheezus singer Lily Allen admitted to cheating on her then-husband, Sam Cooper, while she was touring in 2014. Allen had sex with female escorts, something she wasn’t proud of—but she wasn’t ashamed of either. Allen made her admission after the Daily Mail reportedly obtained excerpts of her memoir, My Thought Exactly. The book debuts on bookshelves September 20.
Allen, 33, took to Instagram to give her side of the story, saying the Daily Mail had a story coming out and they would likely put their own spin on it.
“I slept with female escorts when I was on tour, cause I was lost and lonely and looking for something. I’m not proud, but I’m not ashamed. I don’t do it anymore,” Allen wrote. “The Mail are gonna run with the story tomorrow cause someone leaked it, and they’re bound to make it sound worse than it was. Just wanted to give you Er, the ‘heads up’!”
Allen spoke out again during an interview with Australia’s The Project Tuesday: “It’s more about a period of time when I was feeling incredibly lonely and sort of at my wits’ end and I was looking for anything, looking for an outlet, so it is not really like a salacious sex story.”
“It is more about hotel rooms like the one we are sitting in, and being on my own and being very far away from my kids and my husband,” she continued. “It is not like steamy, raunchy — although that is what the tabloids made it out to be like. [A] sort of lesbian prostitute sex romp, which I guess it was, in a way.”
Allen and Cooper divorced in 2016 after five years of marriage. They share daughter’s Ethel, 6, and Marnie, 5. The split was finalized in June.
Allen never wanted to divorce, telling People magazine in 2016 that struggled with substance abuse came out in 2014. “I had a sort of midlife crisis on my last record [Sheezus]. Reentering the workplace as a mum, I found it really difficult,” she said at the time. “I kind of lost myself.”
“It was really sad. If I didn’t think I was going to be married forever, I wouldn’t have married,” the “F*** You” singer continued. “It’s a disappointment, but I think it was the right decision and it was necessary, and ultimately, I just want to make a safe and secure environment for my kids, and that was ironically the best way of doing that.”